I don’t know what’s wrong with me but I never that this is the worst that I’ve felt in a while. It’s not about emotions or anything but actually something that is real. I am losing my ability to connect and communicate with other people. I don’t know why but I just can’t seem to find the words to say when someone asks me something simple or even just wants to have a conversation. I know that this probably sounds dumb but it’s something that I’ve been struggling with for a while. It could be that I am not in an atmosphere that is healthy for me, which is what I’ve been thinking for a while now. I love everyone that I’ve been hanging out with but I feel that I’m getting nowhere and actually digressing but I can’t communicate this because people will think that I am an asshole… I need to be able to do all of the things that I know I can do and at this point it is not working.