Realizing what you need is hard. Especially when what you thought u needed was someone else. Personally, I am starting to realize that I might have wasted the last 5 years living my life for someone else and now that someone else has left me. Now that I have had some time alone, I have realized that I don’t even know how to live my life alone anymore and all the things that I thought I had planned to go well had all included the one person that is not here anymore. Not saying that anything bad has happened or anything like that but I do feel like it is a problem to not know how to go forward in life without someone else. So today, I have decided to let this person go and see what life has to bring me. I don’t want to have to feel guilty or selfish for doing things that make my life better. I know that not everyone in your life is going to be there forever but you should never try to make things in your present about the person that you expect to have a future with. I guess it’s time for me to see what life is about without someone else being there.